Welcome to SBW everyone where I invite you all to hear me getting it off my chest – literally and figuratively. This site is all about Breast Cancer. I invite you to comment at the end of any post, and most of all – share with me as I enter into this journey – My Journey.

I am so glad to have your company for a while. Please pull up your chair, bring your coffee/tea or hot chocolate with you and share with me My Journey of how I became a Single Breasted Woman. I will share with you the comings and goings a little of my life before my diagnosis, at the time of my diagnosis and from there on in.

My intent here is to bring about more awareness of Breast Cancer to everyone – no matter whether you be male or female and no matter your age. Anyone can have it and we need to know how to deal with it. Right now it is not possible to prevent it. Though we can certainly catch it in the very early stages and treat it so that it can, hopefully, disappear completely. There are many women who have not only survived this horrible affliction, yet have lived many years to tell the tale. In one case, I found out about a woman who had breast cancer 35 years ago. She went on to have a very successful career after having a mastectomy.

My story so far is filled with lots of tears, confusion, sadness, and heart ache. However believe it or not, there is the lighter side to all of this journey. There is the happiness, the cloud 8 or 9 (depending upon where you are standing at the time), the relief, and joy that goes into ending treatments, trying new methods, meeting new friends, and simply – learning how to live a “normal” life again that in my opinion – will never be “normal” again, even though it appears so.

I welcome you on my voyage of discovery and hope that you will come back often to read my story and share it with your friends. You will also be able to comment on many of my posts. I welcome your comments with open arms.

Bright Blessings

Sandy Cee

Spirit Connections

PS: Don’t forget to put the marshmallows in your hot chocolate..it does soothes the taste buds as the chocolate goes down…

Where to begin with all of this stuff??? That is always the biggest question. It is almost like asking – which came first – the Chicken or the Egg?

Well, for me, it was something of a crescendo when it all happened. Like a wave in the ocean, building up momentum and waiting, swaying back and forth, crashing and building, before finally building up with loads of white foam and crashing down on my world.

In the beginning of this journey of a life time, I had been tooing and froing back and forth. Doing healing on other people and working with them to build up their immunity both physically and emotionally. So I was using the energies of Reiki on them while at the same time, trying to answer their questions on their future through various readings. It wasn’t long before I began to feel drained myself and, as I had no regular doctor, decided to visit the local Women’s Health Centre. I was over due for some of the mandatory tests anyway. Another woman would be able to give me some direction/clarity on what I would need. They also had a naturopath who worked in well with the doctor so that had to be a plus anyway.

To cut to the more recent past, I was there for my second round of tests – a year later – and Dr T was absently filling in yet another form for me to go and get some blood tests done when she was taking my blood pressure and then did a double take. “Wow! It’s HIGH” she almost sang out to me.”Is it?” I asked as absently… I really didn’t know what my bp should be, or was. If it was high, or low, it didn’t make much difference to me as I felt quite fine otherwise – except for the periodic draining.

“Well, I need to do some more meditation then” I said to her thinking that I should add some different visualisations to lower my blood pressure as it seemed to be a problem for her. “You’ll need more than meditation my dear” she looked at me with her big brown eyes in total surprise. Her lips a little apart that made me think seriously that she really meant this. This aspect of my life might be more important than I had thought. My mother had told me a while ago that it was in the family – high blood pressure seemed to be rampant on her side of the family in fact. Though I still didn’t see the relevance of it. I felt my heart with my hand and it didn’t seem to be that high. I closed my eyes and started some slow breathing to bring “it” down. Then she took it again and…yes, it had certainly dropped. Even my heart rate had dropped a little, though too little to be significant. “I can do more meditation to drop it even further” I told her

The look in her eyes told me I had better start thinking more seriously about my health. “I want you to go and see  your regular doctor and get some treatment for this. You can’t keep going on without seeing your doctor.” she continued, choosing to ignore my apparent complacency.

“I don’t  have a regular doctor” I told her. To which her response was an immediate look of shock/horror and her usual big brown eyes opened even more and her mouth opened wider. “Well, you need to find one. This is simply no good. I don’t have room for another patient in my practice otherwise I would take you on myself. Have you had a mammogram?”

Now she had done it – asked another question for which there was to be a negative response. “no” I said as quietly as I could, choosing to avoid her eyes.

“Well, go and have one – it is FREE!” She glared at me – though not angrily – more of a cross between friendly smile and firm  assertiveness.

So I left her and the W.H.C. with another appointment in 6 weeks time and then decided to make the appointment for the mammogram that afternoon. I could have just walked up to the Breast Screen in the main street, however my thoughts now were on catching the bus home and having some nice warm home made soup for lunch. The mammogram would have to wait. After all, I hadn’t felt any lumps, so it wouldn’t matter that much…